At this point, I’m not sure what or where I am anymore. I continue to try and understand, by mapping out my path to where I am now .. But why did I end up here? Was I just too lazy and withdrawn to actually try? I don’t know if I even gave up or trying. Like, that’s how confused I am.
I don’t feel like I have emotional connections to anyone anymore. And I think that’s what leaves me lost. I’ve never been a leader, I’ve always followed and learned and acted in example of the one I followed. I truly felt I could become a better person that way. But then they either get tired of holding my hand or I think I just gave up.. I don’t know what happens. I don’t remember.
I never remember what’s important anymore.